Monday, July 11, 2005

The Haiku from my self-awareness


My beloved friends,
I still could feel the alienness of this country.
There is a little bit bitterness and sadness floating in the air,
Soon.
I
Nearly achieved the Zen Enlightment.
Only want to shout myself:
“SHUP UP AND DO SOMETHING”
My life is still there,
I want change,
Change,
Change,
This CONversaTION IS Over.

posted by fishcake @ 6:13 pm 2 comments

love,criminal,trust and brotherhood

Story started like that,I was out with one of my friend. He had one of his best friend come to visit him from another country. They decided to steal cups from leading coffee retailer(starbucks,Nero,Costa) when they see each other every time.They told me it is exciting to do it together. I am a very displined person, for me it is difficult to understand this kind of feeling.

Then my brain started to work out why so many people are doing the same thing. Especially some lovers like to steal or destory in a shop when they are deeply in love with each other.
The real reason is the needs of commitment. The bondage between good friends and lovers is good commitment and sharing secret, they could not easily betray each other, because they hold theartening information of one another.

This is same with all the gang groups. They need love and trust inside the group , so you have to do something to gain the members' trust. AB(aryan brotherhood) need you to kill someone to show you commitment and the cost of leaving the" hood" is death, how tough!!!!!!

If you love someone, treat him or her like a "hood" business... your love bondage will be stronger than any other lovers.

Information of AB
http://www.knowgangs.com/gang_resources/aryan_brotherhood/ab_001.htm

Lovers=two member only Gang



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Thursday, July 07, 2005

Messed up day


Today is a real mess up day,london is a mess and sad and big bombs and everything. Just On the road which I am living, there was a bank robbery. Policemen were everywhere, choppers were flying around my head everywhere. Everybody is in fear.
I already write about I was reading and watching the movie and book about "fight club" about last few weeks, the chaotic views of my imagination had already became ture, It is like to experience the whole "fight club" thingy in reality. what a coincidence !!
I am wondering, Did taylor plan everyting, Is it all a part of "project mayhem". Or it is a hallucination which I produced by my brain to satisify my needs. Who knows, whatever!!! After all , we all God's middle child, so be it!!!

posted by fishcake @ 2:16 pm 0 comments

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

In case god doesn't like YOU





Last few weeks, I borrowed the movie"fight club" to watch, I never ever tried to watch fully once, because I always watched the movie in the middle of the story on T.V.. I never really understood it.After I watched the movie fully, I was really shocked by the beautiful dialogue and the helpless people in the drama. And by chance, one of my best friends has got a book which the movie is orginated. I really loveed the sentences in the book. especially this line


"you have to know that you are god's middle child, god would have ignored you,even consider the possiblilty that he hates you. So you have to do something to make him notice you, something really big."
another one is "your father is your model for god. And if you never know your father, if your father bails out or dies or is never at home, what do you believe about GOD."

posted by fishcake @ 2:10 pm 1 comments